With the children back at school there is sweet relief in the air today, which is a quiet and peaceful day full of the promise of a little time for knitting. Toby has been quite impossible over the last few weeks with many, many raging tantrums, hurting both himself and us. They’ve been frighteningly intense and there’s been no telling when he’ll come out of each nor what has been causing such extreme frustration and rage. It’s made us more uncertain of the future and wonder whether at some point we’ll be left with no option but to seek residential care for him. But then I need to remind myself that no-one can know what the future holds for Toby and anyway, such dark thoughts are best pushed away on a day like today because the sun is shining here and after 7 weeks of not much time to myself I now have 6 hours that I can call my very own. I’d not have you think it’s been all been doom and gloom either because there have been sweet moments of cuddles, tickles and giggles, fun at the park and peaceful walks in the woods with the children.

I am also thankful for Barbara Higbie’s music (which I stumbled on by accident) as it has entranced Toby (he’s watched this clip more than 20 times most days) and raised my spirits too (it’s impossible to feel down when this is playing)

Amy and I also managed to squeeze our garden campout into the last week. First we went on an unsuccessful hedgehog hunt (although there have been signs that hodgers are back in our garden again after an absence of a year or so), then we made hot chocolate with marshmallows and settled down to tell stories and read until midnight. Amy was then awake at just after six am and played on her DS while I cooked breakfast on the camping stove (I think bacon and eggs always taste best eaten in the fresh air with the slight tang of methylated spirits from the stove!)

I do feel a little melancholy that summer is drawing to a close but I can’t deny being relieved that school has resumed so that Toby can settle into a routine again. I’m happy too that I can pick up my knitting again. I’m putting the finishing touches to something I’ve been making especially for the reception class at Amy’s school, hope to have a picture of him finished later in the week.

Once I’ve had the chance to get a little bunny knitting done I’ll be having a giveaway to celebrate my blogging anniversary but for now it’s nice to be back and I look forward to catching up with everyone.