All of the meetings to try and get some help for Toby have now taken place and we have some new strategies to implement – things that give increased structure and predictability to Toby’s day which will hopefully lessen some of his anxiety. Our appointed social worker is lovely and very easy to talk to and she will continue to see us over the next few months and monitor our situation before deciding whether respite is appropriate or not. Toby’s teacher and speech therapist are continuing to provide daily feedback and ideas and the paediatrician recognised that Toby needs some help to manage life at the moment and has prescribed melatonin to hopefully help him settle and get a good night’s sleep. This is potentially the most impactful development for us right now as we’re all exhausted from almost a month of only a few hours of sleep a night punctuated by extremely stressful episodes of tantruming from poor Toby. The prospect of a full 8 hours is pure bliss right now and I’m looking forward to getting the prescription through (hopefully in the next day or two).

So life here is looking more hopeful again and things are starting to feel manageable once more. Even my little hyacinth bulb is echoing the mood of optimism and is now in full bloom.

In terms of feeling positive and optimistic, a little retail therapy never goes amiss does it? I’m normally drawn to shoes of a reddish nature but it was love at first sight with these spring green ones and I’m liking the thought that they’re walking me back to happier times.

Thanks so much for all of the kind messages and sorry to everyone who is still waiting on a reply from me. I’m slowly working to catch up a little and things will hopefully speed up further once sleep has worked it’s way back into our schedule!