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Spring, maybe?

 

 

It’s been so wet here, rain has fallen for weeks on end and many of our familiar pathways through the woods are now well beyond muddy and are completely flooded and impassable. It’s been mild too, we’ve only had a few frosts here this winter and everything now seems to be sprouting and proclaiming the arrival of Spring. Hopefully it’s not too soon and there are no snow storms just around the corner.

The old plum tree in the garden is currently in blossom, though with all the rain it’s been hard to get good pictures. Usually I post with pictures of it’s beautiful frothy white blossom against bright blue skies, but this year it’s rain soaked blossom. It’s still a lovely sight though and has been a magnet for the growing local population of green parakeets, who’ve been enjoying feasting on the unopened flower buds, sometimes 6 of them in the tree at a time.

We’ve also had daily visits from Squidgy the squirrel who now scrabbles at the back door to get our attention each morning and who loves Brazil nuts best of all. Up until a couple of weeks ago Kit was also visiting frequently and always in daylight. Now however it seems as if we have a new friendly fox, who always visits in the dark. It’s so unusual for a wild fox to tolerate being visible to humans, usually as soon as they see or hear you they disappear into the shadows and are gone. But this new fox is much bolder and, like Kit, stays in the garden when we come out of the house, she sits a safe distance away, ready to run if the need arises but looking hopefully for a snack of one of Toby’s cocktail sausages, which I’m more than happy to share with her. Amy has named her Kira and she’s been visiting every day for the last week. I’m not sure if that means Kit has been turfed off her territory again (a while back she disappeared for many months) and we are wondering, because of the bold behaviour, if Kira is actually one of Kit’s cubs that were raised in our garden in 2020. No way to know of course, I’m just delighted to be able to see these beautiful wild creatures up close.

In between planning for Toby (hopefully we’re nearing the final stages of that all now) I have of course been knitting. I’ve been wanting to knit a lamb in spring green colours, I’m so drawn to green as a colour at the moment, but am dithering about what shade to knit in, I find it’s one of the more difficult colours to choose tonal shades in. Hopefully I’ll reach a decision and finish a spring lamb soon.

Hope that you’re finding small joys in your days, J x

 

autism · wildlife

January, beginnings

Well here we are again at the beginning of a new year, I hope it has started well for you.

We’re doing quite well here, Toby coped with going back to college yesterday and the much earlier start to his days and I’ve been slowly but steadily ticking things off my to do list. At the moment all of my focus is on preparing for the cliff edge that we currently face at the end of June when Toby’s college placement finishes. That will mark the end of his 20 years in ‘education’ and a humungous change for our family. I’m spending all of my available time trying to put in place support and community activities for him so that he can have some meaningful activities in his life outside of his home here and that I can continue to have time in which to work on patterns and earn a living.

We’ve had no support of any kind since he turned 18 and so have had to begin all over again with preliminary assessments. If you have ever gone through the process of getting a care assessment and putting in place ongoing care for a loved one you will already know about the mountainous burden of paperwork and the enormity of the continuing task, from setting up new bank accounts to manage direct payments; accounting for every penny spent; interviewing, screening via DBS checks and training personal assistants to manage his needs; researching, visiting and engaging placements for day care. It is all down to families to undertake and organise and is utterly daunting and exhausting. This week has been all about recording on paper the struggle that Toby has with every day life, and it’s really laid me low to bring into sharp focus and put into words everything about his condition that limits his life and the enormous impact that has on our family.

So I am trying my hardest to just concentrate on one small step at a time, and have had to make a very conscious effort to focus on the small positives that have come my way so far this year. I’m sharing them here mostly to remind myself that often it’s the small things that lift a moment from despair to delight.

  • I have a new garden friend, Bob D. Robin, who flies down to the garden table each morning at dawn when I’m preparing breakfast for the chickens, he gets a pinch of sunflower seeds as a thank you for brightening the start of my day with his beautiful song, sung from the topmost branch of the old plum tree.
  • Kit the fox is still visiting, very sporadically over the autumn but a little more frequently these last couple of weeks, though mostly after dark so it’s been hard to get pictures of her. She looks well and has a thick and fluffy winter coat. It’s coming up to mating time so it will be interesting to see if she has a litter this year and whether she visits more frequently if she falls pregnant.
  • Sunrises and sunsets, closer together at this time of year with the short winter days, always have the capacity to bring joy and the vibrant colours splashed across the sky are captivating to watch. I often stand outside with a cup of tea in hand and just enjoy the unfolding spectacle.
  • The weather here has been so mild, wet and windy so far this winter but the coming week sees a change to colder, brighter days so I’m hoping to get out with my camera and find the first snowdrops. The anticipation of seeing their beauty is a small joy at the moment too.
  • Looking back over the pictures that I took during 2023 has brought a lot of pleasure too, the first picture above is a mosaic of a few of my favourites

I hope that you are finding some small joys in your days too and if you’re fearful about impending events in your life this year, I hope that you’re finding ways to move forward with a hopeful heart,

See you soon, J x

countryside · crafts & knitting · in the woods · wildlife

Autumn in the woods: part 2

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There’s a line from a Mary Oliver poem, which resonates for me…

“If you have ever gone to the woods with me, I must love you very much”

ย ‘How I go to the woods’ from ‘Swan: Poems and Prose Poems’

For only a handful of people have ever come to the woods with me, and all of them are my most loved people.

Going to the woods is usually something that I much prefer to do on my own (except for walks with Toby of course), because being alone in a wood is a wonderful sensory experience which is greatly diminished if you’re chatting with someone else.

Alone you can walk quietly, listening to the forest sounds and concentrating on noticing small details: the curl of a leaf; the glint of a toadstool in the dark of a hollowed out stump; a leaf reflected in a small pool of silvery water cupped in the cap of a toadstool; the patterns in a decaying tree.

The woods feel safely enduring and impervious to the anguish and perils of the human world, and although this is of course a fanciful illusion, I am happy to embrace that feeling for an hour or two and let the woodland peace dissolve my disquiet.

Back home knitting is proving soothing too and I have a finished pair of socks and a few scarves still on the go.

I hope that you also have fortifying activities that gently reinforce hope, optimism and joy for you in these troubled times.

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